Tuesday, August 24, 2004Y
8:17:00 PM
Erh...life wasnt a easy task isnt it... there will be always obstruction blocking ya way...through out my life there is hard ship... but i cant say is really tat bad...however sometime is really hard to destory tt obstacle...sometime cant even breath...i have learn lots of things...cos my journey consist of backstab...betray...hurt...li yong...happiness... only a few... but it wont last long...even till now... the past have make mi not to trust anyone. i can even felt tat my heart is hollow... until recently... hollow has grown deeper...endless...slient...mistrust and hurt even deeper...tried may ways to forgive and forget...however something will eventually happen and obstruct my way... GOD... may i ask u... to forget... is it really a wrong way... can u tell mi tt to forget is a way to run away from reality...MAN...i hate this...its a torture...
i will never forget tt day when my frenz say... u r no longer wanted...i was so damn sad...i thought... do u all really know wats frenz is for...i even think they jus usin mi as a tool...i ran back...cried...i even fell down at the road... bleed and bruise on arm and leg... mum hug mi... said... DON WORRY I WILL ALWAYS BE YA FRENZ... words touch my heart...warm...
i maybe happy and smile every time... but i was thinkin... all ppl r wearin a mask behind their true face... even mi...( i think so la -.-!!)
hmm... no one has ever seen my dark side... not even my parents... but i knew...once its unseal... i will never turn back.... my instinct tells mi...my dark side is scary...too scary to reveal...
haha!! Luckly i still have my instinct to control my dark side... cos i still have my family to support...
at least i am much more happier then last time... i even learn one thing...ppl have their different hard ship... so i don expect ppl to be the same like mi...
to god i pray... i want every ppl to be happy... though i have many enemy outside...scoldin mi... may god by ya side when u need them... o(^.^)o
