Wednesday, January 07, 2009Y
11:30:00 PM
suppose to be older post but created this yr.no harm posing for fun.
watching hot shot while typing it
cos it jus runs well with the thought and give mi a *click* to type the article.
Now I really believe that hormone can really change a human affection towards another person
Just like a traffic light
When it’s time to go
(Green)
Ya feeling runs like a river flow..
Nonstop..
No obstruction can stop them from running in opposite direction in downstream
Just like it can’t stop u from the affection towards another
It just keeps flowing like river
Even if it is obstructed, it will accumulate the water till the brim and over flow
Isn’t affection of love sounds like this?
Towards the day estrogens produces and reach to the ovulation period,
(Yellow)
Affection is in low tide..
So are ya feelings..
Emotions set in..
Irregular like tidal wave..
Can be big and small wave..
Big, u really misses badly till u drowns..
Small till u really very tired and down..
During ovulation period,
(Red)
somehow it affects your judgement..
this article wrote:
“women preference for certain male scent and other male features changes over their cycle
At other phase of cycle they prefer less sexiness and more stability”
Ya .. quite true..
But somehow..
I knew..
My affection is real..
Even if red lighted..
Even if somehow it stops my affection..
Logically my brain is thinking of u without my heart beating
Cos I know..
After tat..
I will eventually still miss u again..
Even if I know mentally I am really not compatible..
My emotions are real and unstoppable..
But..
Overpowering mentality will tell me to face the logic and stop physically
Each and everything u had achieve in your life
I feel that I am a complete failure..
Somehow u are too perfect..
Perfect till I can’t reach..
Even if I reach the sky..
wings will clipped..
burn by sun.. (free suntan)
Being rejected by the sky one day..
The higher I reach..
The harder the fall..
The greater the impact..
It seems that I can’t afford to suffer that impact..
I will get lost in my journey..
And to me..
The perfect and each and everything that made who u are..
I am quite scared..
It seems that I am nothing..
So tiny..
No specially..
No appearance..
No knowledge..
Nothing..
I have nothing to match with u
Not even a topic..
Not even a conversation..
Seriously..
I am really tired..
The waiting..
The chase..
The avoidance..
The journey..
But I am trying to let my feeling run..
I can’t force myself to stop the run..
This becomes a burden..
I need someone to share this burden..
The burden of my family..
The burden of my career..
The burden of my plans..
The burden of life..
I am completely lost..
In reality..
