Thursday, September 18, 2008Y
8:27:00 PM
really tiring
physically
mentally
constraint
being a woman is really very tiring
have to suffer tremendous mood swing when u r having every mth business with "big aunty"
this time round my physical plays mi
tired plays apart
emotional cames in later
depression plays the trick
pre/post syndrome
is it really true it will affect ya mood?
i believe i need to pop in couple of dizapam pills huh?
getting moody..
don really want to tok much either
don really want to smile much either
think a lot
kinda being distracted recently
don know y too..
forget many things..
getting a bit deaf..
afraid of forget to pass over..
getting very disorganize..
how ppl think of mi when they wk with mi..
communication break down..
tat really worries mi..
till i don know wat to do..
intense is in the air
can god jus drop by and pass mi a msg
tell mi wat am i suppose to do?
i am getting more and more lost recently..
till i don know how to say
till i don know how to describe
can anyone jus come in front of mi
jus tell mi wat the hell is going wrong with mi knowing wat i am really thinking..
i really give up..
very frustrated..
feel like don want to care anymore..
ps- annabella come back to assist john today..
*happy*
but she felt the intense and silence today..
ya.. most prob i affected ya mood..
stress is the word
annabella makes my day today.
at least u make mi giggle.
*glad*
sister tan spoils the day
i am wking my last day at 12 oct
(eh hope is really the last day..)
sunday, am!
lucky with my rachael dear..
my last day will be with u.
sept 18
thoughts of faith
destiny guides
leading to years of naive life
insecurity continues..
look at u..
thoughts fumble..
r u dropping hints?
r u shy?
r u afraid?
or..
its just simplicity foolish thoughts of mine..
making myself a complete idiot..
waiting day by day..
hoping miracle happens..
hoping fate decide..
stupid..
jus plain stupid..
hopeless..
jus plain hopeless..
hollow..
deeper then any wells..
thoughts
wider then any seas..
plz..
no more hope
no more hints
don be gd..
don be cruel..
hollow cant take deeper hollow anymore..
heartaches..
wounds deep..
sounds spins..
i remember
sounds of ya voice
sounds of ya steps
sounds of ya breath
this memories..
seems unforgettable..
