Saturday, April 10, 2010Y
9:54:00 PM
10 aprhmm new flash..
still got another 1 mth treatment to go!
must really drop my weight!!
oki..
another 2 mths is kee kee wedding!
i need to slim down
i do have to admit
slim down do make ppl confident..
perhaps woman in my age r desprate..
like i want to have a relationship
like i want someone to like who i am
like i want to get married
like perhaps kids next
but 1 ting comes in horror
which i almost forgotten
till my young cousin came today
she alerted mi how serious to get tied? hook? in marriage
am i really ready for this
kids homes bills are expensive expenses
do i have the money?
is my job really high enough to support this family
to my horror
i have this thought..
is my pay far too low..
i am getting worried..
shall i be worried..
come to tink abt this..
comes down to the point..
i don know wat husband i am going to married..
then i ask my mom
is she afraid tat i will marry the wrong man
u jus need to open your eyes big..
tat didnt really help much..
worried..
15th apr
jus feel like crying or breakdown
for no reason..
with at least someone to hug to when i breakdown..
but who will be tat someone flash on my mind..
basically no idea..
the whole thing abt bridesmaid this june..
horrify..
1st.. fats..
2nd.. single..
3rd.. huaband..
4th.. money..
how i hope i had a partner now..
at least someone there to be with mi when i need.
haiz..
give upz.
