Monday, October 11, 2004Y
3:21:00 PM
now alone in lvl 5 computer lab... 1521...alone...heart felt to empty now...
make mi remember of my pass... being alone... with no one to tok to...
pass 2 yrs... no tokin to anyone... jus sittin there alone...
ppl thought i veri tao... but actually is there was no one to tok to... and i cant think of anythin to tok...
ppl how have alone before would know wat i mean... it wasnt a easy task...
1st... struggle, saddness and sorrow...
gettin out isnt easy with out ppl help in this stage... tt time i only hope tt ppl will tok to mi, jus open their mouth and tok to me happily... but no one approach... maybe becos i no longer know wat to tok to them anymore... so i keep slient... and let them use mi like a tool... in terms of knowledge... (T.T)
2nd... learn to accept...
3rd... get use to it...
lasty...alone...
my feelin of alone.... hmm... something like... heart's crying in sorrow...
erm.... feel veri -ve now... don know is it the song in disc man or period affectin my behavior??
o(-m-)o
i don know how u ppl felt... cos differnt ppl got different concept and feelin towards this alone...
it hurts when u wanna help someone but they end up saying this "DAMN! U R NOT MI HOW CAN U UNDERSTAND HOW I FELT!"
but... we r only tryin to help... cos seein them suffer make us suffer too... like everytime i was thinkin wat to tok... till i kinda think of i cant get along with them well... but if i sad or depress... other ppl might felt tat too...how can ppl be happi when u r not happi ya self...
tats wat i have learn... to forgive and forget... accept the truth and continue my life... don think too much... and jus be ya self... cos if ya wanna change... u will eventually lost yourself in the middle of the journey... and if ya change... it not only affect u but also others...
recently... i have kinda offended a fren... i am really willing to apologise... 100... or even 1000 apologe... cos i know he/she is already in my life tat i cannot bear to lose... others too... i know how he/she felt cos i also felt before... but i don know whether is it this feelin... deep down feelin neglected... lost...sad... i wanna say i am sorry.... for neglecting ya feelin... i jus wanna share the joy to u... and next time we will be together... joy.... don try to maintain the relationship... cos i know i will make things more worse...
my life hasn end...the story hasn end... i haven put a fullstop on my story yet... if i do.... i wont be here anymore... i will put a fullstop if i have nothin to write in my story anymore... then poff... vanish into thin air... with no regrets... cos i have end my journey... and fly to else where to start another new life... with a touch by angel... to guide my path and
yours...
FIN
make mi remember of my pass... being alone... with no one to tok to...
pass 2 yrs... no tokin to anyone... jus sittin there alone...
ppl thought i veri tao... but actually is there was no one to tok to... and i cant think of anythin to tok...
ppl how have alone before would know wat i mean... it wasnt a easy task...
1st... struggle, saddness and sorrow...
gettin out isnt easy with out ppl help in this stage... tt time i only hope tt ppl will tok to mi, jus open their mouth and tok to me happily... but no one approach... maybe becos i no longer know wat to tok to them anymore... so i keep slient... and let them use mi like a tool... in terms of knowledge... (T.T)
2nd... learn to accept...
3rd... get use to it...
lasty...alone...
my feelin of alone.... hmm... something like... heart's crying in sorrow...
erm.... feel veri -ve now... don know is it the song in disc man or period affectin my behavior??
o(-m-)o
i don know how u ppl felt... cos differnt ppl got different concept and feelin towards this alone...
it hurts when u wanna help someone but they end up saying this "DAMN! U R NOT MI HOW CAN U UNDERSTAND HOW I FELT!"
but... we r only tryin to help... cos seein them suffer make us suffer too... like everytime i was thinkin wat to tok... till i kinda think of i cant get along with them well... but if i sad or depress... other ppl might felt tat too...how can ppl be happi when u r not happi ya self...
tats wat i have learn... to forgive and forget... accept the truth and continue my life... don think too much... and jus be ya self... cos if ya wanna change... u will eventually lost yourself in the middle of the journey... and if ya change... it not only affect u but also others...
recently... i have kinda offended a fren... i am really willing to apologise... 100... or even 1000 apologe... cos i know he/she is already in my life tat i cannot bear to lose... others too... i know how he/she felt cos i also felt before... but i don know whether is it this feelin... deep down feelin neglected... lost...sad... i wanna say i am sorry.... for neglecting ya feelin... i jus wanna share the joy to u... and next time we will be together... joy.... don try to maintain the relationship... cos i know i will make things more worse...
my life hasn end...the story hasn end... i haven put a fullstop on my story yet... if i do.... i wont be here anymore... i will put a fullstop if i have nothin to write in my story anymore... then poff... vanish into thin air... with no regrets... cos i have end my journey... and fly to else where to start another new life... with a touch by angel... to guide my path and
yours...
FIN
