Wednesday, July 20, 2005Y
2:55:00 PM
days r counted...lifes r tired...
"*^*fatigué de l'amour*^*"
my whole entire 19 yrs life i have been handin up white piece of ppr.
with stretches or marks on it.
full of tiredness, disappointment, mistrust, depress, no confidence etc etc.
wont ever forget... the phase...
gal said...
"if my size is like u i wont think much but jus together with him."
another gal said...
"he is too pityful... jus give him a chance."
...
is amour toy?
is amour charity?
is amour fund?
is amour a thing for u all to fool ard?
this is bullshit...
my ans is NO!!!
i wont treat my amour like toy, charity, fund or fool ard esp relationship.
if i pity him or watever i believe he will be even hurt u gal out there!!!
usin ya butt to thing instead!!!
u think i never suggle?
u think i am cold blooded?
ya i am.
i am jus a cold blooded animal.
ya the sadness and confuse is play for fake hoh...
i rather hand up a blank ppr full with stretches
rather then hurtin their hearts.
ppls out there...
others believe tat ppl who like or love mi veri suay or pity or watever u all wanna say!!!
get this in ya brain!!!
i am jus sick and tired of relationship!!!
i don trust ppl out there by handlin my whole heart to the opp!!!
ya i think much!!!
i believe much!!!
trust and relationship need to be earn!
don think tat u r the only one tat know wats love like!!!
don think tat u r the only one who experience wat is waitin like!!!
i tell u i do know how it feels more then u ever think of.
ya i not exp enough to counsel ppl esp relationship.
maybe i should jus shut up instead huh.
but i tell u though many yrs pass...
ya sentence is still inside my brain.
unable to remove!!!
u don know how much it hurts and how discouraging ya words have make a gal mistrust a relationship...
jus becoz if ya single sentence...
i feel phobia towards relationship...
i feel headache towards relationship...
i feel troublesome towards relationship...
four more things...
i maybe ugly... but i still have dignity...
i would rather be ugly then findin a love which contain no meanin!!!
i would rather be ugly then lyin to myself!!!
i would rather be ugly to find a person who really accept wat i am!!!
hurr hurr...
wahahahahaaaa feel better!!!
hehehehehe...
ps for all rubbish above.
nothin better to write also.
so use angry to produce some wk.
^^ll
*^*bi*ch off*ine*^*
