Sunday, April 02, 2006Y
4:10:00 PM
...i believe not many ppl read blogs...
...but this perhaps is the 1st time i type...
...the most deepest and sad thing ever...
...1sty i must say...
...thanx for giving the 9 mth...
...even though i think u might not see this...
...but u didn really waste tat 9 mth...
...cos i did waste mine too tat time...
...but its jus too late...
...i have already give up and tired during starting of the sch this yr...
...waiting is always not my cup of tea...
...moreover when tat situation happen...
...it more confirms tat i shall no longer wait anymore...
...the hint tat u drop...
...its not i don know...
...but i am jus not prepared...
...women is like weather...
...unpredictable...
...i think alot...
...u r not the 1st one i have give up...
...u r not the 1st one i have cried...
...but...
...u r the 1st one i cried the most...
and
...hurt the most...
...i am angry cos i am hurt...
...even till yesterday...
...my heart is as hollow as ever...
...as sour as ever...
...i may appear to smile and happy...
...but at times tat isnt the real mi...
...i am jus wanting to forget and avoid...
...at times it might not appear to be strong...
...i am jus a women after all...
...don tell mi to change...
...don tell mi wat i shall do...
...i jus want to be myself...
...the original mi...
...don think its jus only u yaself hurt...
...i believe i am much more hurtful then u...
...i did know tat i am selfish...
...i did know tat i am aggressive...
...i did know tat i am self-centered...
...i did know wats ard mi...
...yesterday at k box...
...i really did wanna cry...
...perhaps to mi its wrong to cry...
...so i didn't really do so...
...crying alone...
...however...
...it didnt really heal...
...i am jus a human being...
...with...
...emotions...
more then
...rational thoughts...
...frens did tell mi think of the gd times...
...but when u hate tat person...
...its hard to forgive and forget...
...don force a person to forget...
...and ya...
i did forget wat happen in 4 may 2004
*sniff sniff*
...seriously...
...i am really tired abt it...
...i lost my heart...
...wats left is the pain and bleed...
...and i wanna tell u...
...i have deleted ya msn account...
...cos i believe u did the same too...
...shall end here...
...y don anyone put mi asleep...
...i am jus so tired...
...so tired...
...
..
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