Thursday, April 06, 2006Y
5:22:00 PM
...6 april 2006......cloudly...
...can readers do mi a favor...
...read the entry below 1st before starting read this...
...thank u very much...
...i am really tired...
...really really very tired...
...in reality i smile and happy...
...but deep down inside i know tat i am jus acting to be happy...
...this is really torturing mi...
...heart is really veri hollow now...
...now then i know the meaning of xin suan... (heart sour?)
...its worse then my favorite ice lemon tea...
...i really really very wish tat i didn approach u at 1st place...
...i really really think now tat i shall not actually reply ya crazy "thinging"...
...then i will not suffer now...
...the more i read...
...the more i jus feel hate...
...the more i jus feel sad...
...the content to mi sounds like its all my fault...
...the content to mi sounds fake...
...torturing myself not to cry...
...till the end...
...last nite...
...out of control...
...tears jus roll...
...staring at the sky...
...i feel so hurt...
...really hurt...
...even till now...
...since...
...u already think tat i will think or say "never see, never see la, no big deal"...
...ok...
...ya wish will be granted...
...u manage to make a gal hate and cry for u...
...perhaps u r happy now...
...u have succed ya wish...
...ya wish is granted...
...ya...
...beginning its all my fault...
...i shouldnt have say in harsh tone...
...i shouldnt have approach u and tok...
...i shouldnt have start all this senerios...
...i jus apology...
...its really my fault...
...i know...
...till the end...
...this story ends badly...
...we shall not continue the story...
...i grant ya wish...
...i promise to delete all the things tat reminds mi of u...
...including phone...
...including pictures...
...bla bla bla...
...thanks for telling mi to change...
...but i am myself...
...i shall not change...
...thanks for letting mi know how it feels like to hate and cry for a person...
...thanks for letting mi feel wats heartache...
...now then i know y my sec fren say tat i am not prepared for all this...
...they know tat i cannot take it...
...y women is granted with so many tear...
...y cant i jus stop crying and type!!!...
...shitty...
...shitty...
...i shall stop typing...
...i promise to forget abt u...
...i promise...
