Wednesday, October 17, 2007Y
7:31:00 PM
argh...my mood is now down to the bottom of no where
fuk bad
really fuking bad
so i decided to open my brown brother champaine wine...
bought it on monday with chew...
heard is not the best but its better then nothing
actually thought of next week de cos i am off one week...
but really bad mood now...
drinking while waiting for my dinner
in my way back
i am thinking of ways to kill a person...
(*pss* didnt i tell u i am a sadist? *haha*)
and then i think back
does a normal person think of tat on their way back home?
i don know...
i am also thinking of it when i am in bath room...
how does it feel to kill a person?
of cos i have no intention of doing it
but then think back...
if another person was doing it
how does it feel?
anyone any idea?
working over there...
i have lots of disappointment...
even have the intention of quitting
but i always tell myself
how others treat mi
i shall not follow
many ppl think tat i am stupid
cos in the end i will only wk like hell till i dead
but then if we wk like them
aint we the same like them?
end up we r hating ourselves
i know i am really in bad shape
i can say there will be many ppl toking behind my back
in fact everyone in my work area is a topic
shall not spill a single word from my mouth
i shall not mention anymore
let time flash away my current thoughts
i shall keep my mouth shut
i am disappointed with this world too...
@ times i think...
y wasnt i die in tat car accident...
cos my mom saved mi...
mom has use prayers to exchange my life back...
i am glad...
but yet tired of living...
but then think back...
to live is a happy thing...
i can be with my family more...
but
if i am dead...
i think only my family will shed tears from their hearts ba...
adults...
HAHAHAHAHAAAA~~~
fillty (chen zang) adults...
even i am adult... (dotz)
so i shall try my best to do wat i can
i shall try my best to behave
i shall try my best to help ppl who need help
i wk for ppl...
tat wat make mi suffer a lot
i have been trying ways to change it
but then ppl means it involve patients too
but my job is to help them
so in the end i still wk for ppl
hai~!
argh!
eat dinner!
i shall forgive and forget
i already make my move by calling ya name today
u still black face with mi
i got nothing to do
btw...
ask u all hoh
do we have this sentence
"respect has to be earn"?
i think i heard it somewhere before
but i cant remember where
can tell mi is there such sentence?
can explain to mi wat it means?
tata
DINNER TIME~!
