Sunday, September 28, 2008Y
5:45:00 PM
back to reality againthrowing down right back to earth
telling u
hey..
u don have a vacancy
knowing tat is expected since i have waited for tat long reply
and moreover feeling tat HR kinda screw up the application form
i can careless abt it now
jus plainly reality sux
so much things happen ard
handling such things becomes burden
knowing i am in bad condition
things jus have to come right out of my stupid mouth
telling mi not to cry
i know..
perhaps its jus not the time
but jus stupid emotions sets in
for all the hard wk and afford and tremendous stress pile up
its hard not for a person to cry
call mi not to upset seems impossible..
but hopefully i can overcome it.
life simply kinda screw up somehow
letch tell mi i am still young
but i told her
looking at the things u wanna archive in life..
life is jus too short..
and i am serious abt it.
she kinda give mi this piss off look
all i can do is smile back and say its true.
cos part of ya time will be thinking wat u want to do in life
then lesser time for the things u want to accomplish
haha..
thought everything will went well
but then this bombs mi
i am the 5% candidate tat cant make it cos of the application
weekends kinda horrible..
i have been hibernating and looking at my parents
most of the times rest..
most of the times stare..
well..
not even enjoying the f1 race..
simply want to lock myself in cage..
haha..
"i am screw in my brain"
dad mom made mi go out have dinner with them..
hee..
guess they know i am feeling down
esp my mom
took a few photo of my dad
then denise call in between dinner when i am having my guo tie dumping
hee
see i didn intro u wrong dvd rite..
i also like that "last fren" show
make mi recall some memories..
and the things tat he say is so meaningful!
jus tat ending is spoiler!!
haha! plz see yaself oki!
perhaps i also want to buy
or borrow from u
=P
then went to buy fruits and home
have read this article
"how to pick a perfect mate"
it seems true
its from reader's digest which chew pick up
very nice
lets start with conscious part.
there r things we all find attractive.
1) psychologically / physically
men tend to desire women with features that suggest youth and fertility :
- low waist to hip ratio
- full lips
- soft facial feature
(kinda true)
women have strong preference for men which indicate sexual potency and good genes:
- taut bodies (hee hee-a bit)
- broad shoulders (so true)
- clear skin (yummy!)
- defined, masculine facial feature (not really)
we also know women r attracted to men who look
- as if they have wealth
- abilities
"universal preference for these qualities - beauty, brains and resources" (u will end up single if u r still looking for such perfect person and its scary to have no flawless mate)
"we tend to fall for those who, on attractiveness, intelligence and status, are a similar ranking to ourselves!!" (tats so true)
2) chemistry (genetics / mate preferences)
shows tat ppl r attracted to one another who possess a particular set of genes known as MHC
* major histocompatibility complex*
however how do ppl who differ in their MHC find each other wasnt fully understood but the impt cue is smell.. (ya i agree too)
ppl tend to rate the scent of t shirt worn by those with dissimilar MHC as most attractive.
(is it true, wait let mi see and smell then i give u ans oki)
so in the end they come out with this ans
TRUST YA INSTINCTS!!
- except that there is an alarming exception
ppl in hormonal contraceptives, till prefer men whose MHC genes are similar to their own
they suggest tat the best is to smell him 1st before u go on with the pills~
another example of exception
attractions can fluctuate over menstrual cycle
men evaluate women's scents as more attractive when they r near ovulation
women's preference for certain male scents and other male features change over their cycle
when near ovulation, they prefer masculine traits
(OH GOSH I AM ABDNORMAL)
at other phase of cycle they prefer less sexiness and more stability
(perhaps this don apply to mi)
another example of exception
sex..
it can complicate the way u perceive a potential partner
after sex, the brain release oxytocin which results in warm companionable feeling of love and creation of social bonds impt for child rearing
WATCH OUT: sex on a whim can lead to feeling of love for a person who is entirely wrong for u!!
so sex is not love!!
erh this article is very damn long..
in short
love is a conundrum!!
so when u r looking for a partner don take hormone pills..
don pick when u r ovulating
don have sex before marriage!
end of story.
sweet..
interested in the article..
its actually feb 2008 issue..
shall pass ard this book
hee hee..
